Day 19: Enneagram

I said "yes" to the dentist today and told my dental hygienist about my project. She asked me to come over and help her redo her floors. I told her "yes" but she probably thought I was joking. Rachel, if you're reading this, I'm serious :)! 

This evening I attended an Enneagram Meetup with a friend. The enneagram is a psychological model for describing different personality types ranging in numbers 1-9. I love all things related to the human psyche so I gladly participated in the workshop. 

Turns out I'm enneagram number 4

"Fours are self-aware, sensitive, and reserved. They are emotionally honest, creative, and personal, but can also be moody and self-conscious. Withholding themselves from others due to feeling vulnerable and defective, they can also feel disdainful and exempt from ordinary ways of living. They typically have problems with melancholy, self-indulgence, and self-pity. At Their Best: inspired and highly creative, they are able to renew themselves and transform their experiences."

 Yikes, it's true! Unlike most other personality assessments, the enneagram is somewhat negative in that it surfaces unconscious character attributes to promote awareness and personal growth. I think that's why it is not as popular as Myers Briggs or even something fun like astrology. The enneagram brings up your subconscious fears. I learned as a "4" my most basic fear is being ordinary and normal. I started laughing thinking about how I'm forcing myself to say "yes" to everything in order to escape my normal routine, leading me to a workshop where I discovered that I'm just afraid of being a basic b. I love it.